心灰意冷

It doesn't matter if one's kindness is not reciprocated because kindness can come back in different forms. But what if people started taking one's kindness for granted?

Should one just focus on doing good because it is the right thing to do? Or is there such a thing as a deserving or undeserving person for kindness?

It doesn't matter if one's contribution and service is not appreciated because appreciation can come back in different forms. But what if people started taking one's mindset for granted and do not bother to show appreciation because one does not depend on it to contribute and serve? Or worse still, when there are people who decided to show appreciation only to those who depended on it to contribute and serve?

If there is such a thing as deserving and undeserving, then what should one do, for a deserving institution run by undeserving people?

Where is the fine line between being unappreciated and being taken for granted? Or is there no difference?

Self-centred Kiddy

It has been more than one year since the depressing post came along...I wonder if anyone still bothers to check on this moving castle since all your previous visits were disappointing. I am very sorry and yet thankful for those who kept the faith that kiddy would come back. Maybe you will be curious what made kiddy decide to come back today...hmmm...because kiddy feels disappointed today, disappointed with myself for feeling unhappy. 

有人说，宁愿我负天下人，也不愿天下人负我。

我坚信，宁愿天下人负我，也不愿我负天下人。

But kiddy has failed for kiddy had expected others to treat him the way people expected him to treat others. Kiddy believes that everyone should strive to be the best for the world but kiddy has always tried to work towards not expecting any kindness or hold onto expectations of people being just, kind, fair to him. Because kiddy believes no one in the world owes him anything, even if he has chosen to do things for others but today kiddy faltered; kiddy was disappointed. Is it about justice, fairness, expectations or double standards when others do unto you what others do not want you to do unto them? 

Sigh, but actually that's not important, what's important is the realisation that kiddy has become weak. It seems like kiddy has been taking the moving castle a little too quickly around, at too fast a pace that kiddy has "forgotten" the fundamentals. Looking back at the previous posts, kiddy has failed to realise this for at least the last 15 months, and has allowed himself to spiral downwards. Kiddy has started to become very self-centred. Shame on kiddy...

Once in a Century...

Depressing

mid-20s towards late 20s already...

when one's beliefs in being professional and actions being guided by integrity and responsibility earns the trust of others...is being sunk into doubt...when one fails oneself some day...what happens?

is it really about one disappointing oneself or one disappointing others?

is it a blessing for one to be worthy of respect or a blessing for others to have found one who is worthy of respect?

人生真得很短暂，一定要珍惜眼前人。

Recap:

Kiddy's Theory about Probability of Life
Number of ways to be alive = 1
Number of ways to die = ∞
Number of ways to be alive or die = 1 + ∞ = ∞
P(Life) = Number of ways to be alive / Number of ways to be alive or die = 1 / ∞ = 0

Each and everyone of us who is still alive is a miracle!

So cherish! Cherish all the miracles around you!

Expectations

好人会有好报，恶人会有恶报，若有不报，时辰未到。
人不为己天诛地灭。好人难做。

People are often remembered for their flaws and mistakes; weaknesses and misgivings amplified, rarely for their sincerity and kindness; strengths and givings taken for granted.

It is only natural not to ask for anything from people who are not prepared to give; but is a balance achieved when we ask for more from people who are prepared to give?

Lady Luck

Have you ever wondered why Luck is sometimes called Lady Luck, as in why a lady? When does one get lucky? When Lady Luck smiles to one? So when someone strikes 4D, does it mean that that someone is lucky?

But if the someone did not buy 4D to begin with, then that someone would never be "lucky" enough to strike 4D; does it mean that luck contains an element of choice too? On the other hand, my car licence plate number came up 2nd prize but I did not buy, does it on the contrary suggests that I am unlucky? Or have I made a choice not to be able to be "lucky"?

A lot of times in our lives, we have encountered moments when we would exclaim in wonder and relief, "wow, luckily..." or "how lucky of me to have...". So once again, is it really the work of Lady Luck or it is a twist of events due to certain choices we make?

Some people argue that we can predict our future up to 90% accuracy - e.g. we can make appointments with friends (out of our own free will) which we are confident of happening - from how we plan our time of departure and gauge the duration of transport time to meeting the person at a particular place. Yet very often, we take the accuracy and precision of these predictions for granted and we say in dismay, "Life is so unpredictable!"