Self-centred Kiddy

It has been more than one year since the depressing post came along...I wonder if anyone still bothers to check on this moving castle since all your previous visits were disappointing. I am very sorry and yet thankful for those who kept the faith that kiddy would come back. Maybe you will be curious what made kiddy decide to come back today...hmmm...because kiddy feels disappointed today, disappointed with myself for feeling unhappy. 

有人说，宁愿我负天下人，也不愿天下人负我。

我坚信，宁愿天下人负我，也不愿我负天下人。

But kiddy has failed for kiddy had expected others to treat him the way people expected him to treat others. Kiddy believes that everyone should strive to be the best for the world but kiddy has always tried to work towards not expecting any kindness or hold onto expectations of people being just, kind, fair to him. Because kiddy believes no one in the world owes him anything, even if he has chosen to do things for others but today kiddy faltered; kiddy was disappointed. Is it about justice, fairness, expectations or double standards when others do unto you what others do not want you to do unto them? 

Sigh, but actually that's not important, what's important is the realisation that kiddy has become weak. It seems like kiddy has been taking the moving castle a little too quickly around, at too fast a pace that kiddy has "forgotten" the fundamentals. Looking back at the previous posts, kiddy has failed to realise this for at least the last 15 months, and has allowed himself to spiral downwards. Kiddy has started to become very self-centred. Shame on kiddy...